QUIET DAYS OF PLANNING

March 13, 2024March 14, 2024 / joseph elon lillie / 6 Comments

Mom slept for twenty eight hours, waking only once for the bathroom and a bowl of ice cream, all of which she did with her eyes closed and a great deal of protesting. Even washing her face with her PCA was difficult.

Last night at family prayer we discussed our next steps, what the future might look like. We always have two of us “on shift” now at the house as Mom’s health fails further. We reviewed the hospice protocols with everyone and talked through what Mom’s funeral will look like according to her pre-planning.

Today, Mom woke up at about 8:30 and has been a bit more more wakeful. She has eaten a few bowls of ice cream and an egg with most of a piece of toast. She is also drinking again. The PCA says that the back and forth is to be expected at this stage of the hospice journey. But it does seem with each occurrence she slips a little further away from us. Even her “wakefulness” is different from what it was a week ago.

Amanda and I are on shift today. I have been sitting quietly with Mom as she naps and have begun going through old pictures.

Our family back in the day at a Women’s Club old fashioned fashion show

The time is drawing closer, I think when we will need to be putting these pictures together on memory boards.

It is a bitter sweet time as I rehearse memories, retelling myself and the kids the old stories of our family in this place we call the Vicarage. It is a sad time. It is a sweet time. It is violent with inevitability and quiet with a rhythm that feels so deep…so poignant. I sense this quiet planning time is some of the most consequential time I will ever spend.

The Watches Of the Night

March 7, 2024 / joseph elon lillie / Leave a comment

Praise the Lord, all you servants of the Lord

who minister by night in the house of the Lord.

2Lift up your hands in the sanctuary

and praise the Lord.

3May the Lord bless you from Zion,

he who is the Maker of heaven and earth. Psalm 134

Mom’s health is now at a place where someone is with her in her room or the next room 24/7. As I write, Brenda and I are working remotely with our ministries from the table just outside Mom’s room while she watches Jessica Fletcher from her hospital bed. She has just had her morning meds and is slowly falling back to sleep, which she does a lot these days.

I generally have the night watch. I sleep really well in the recliner at the foot of Mom’s bed (an ability no one else in my family shares).

Mom is usually up at least one time in the night if not twice. This has radically changed my sleep schedule and that has blessed me greatly. One of the things I have always wanted to implement in my prayer life was the Benedictine rhythm of prayer: Matins, Lauds, Prime, Terce, Sext, None, Vespers and Compline.

I have managed to implement the sessions but not in their proper time slots…that is… not until this season of life.

Mom’s nighttime schedule has made it very easy to get up and pray for Matins and Lauds. I have to say, spreading out the hours of prayer into more evenly spaced sessions has made the prayer-life balance so much richer. Life flows out of prayer, then life flows back into prayer. One of my hopes is that I will be able to establish this rhythm permanently and naturally into my life.

Steadfast Sons

March 3, 2024 / joseph elon lillie / Leave a comment

Our church is comprised of small groups of people we call Doing Life Together Groups. Each group is encouraged to

STUDY THE BIBLE TOGETHER/ TO PRAY TOGETHER/ TO FELLOWSHIP AND BUILD DEEP RELATIONSHIP WITH EACH OTHER/ AND TO MEET NEEDS IN THE CHURCH AND IN THE COMMUNITY TOGETHER.

One of our “DLT” groups is a group of men called The Steadfast Sons. This year they chose to minister to the greater community of men in our church though and event called “BE A GODLY MAN”.

About 40 men from 8 different DLT groups showed up for breakfast lunch and five breakout sessions

Andy Ross and Stephen Sandoval were our co facilitators in Doing Life Together for the day.

Here are some of my take aways from the day.

BOYS CANNOT CONFER MANHOOD ON THEMSELVES. MEN NEED TO CONFER MANHOOD ON THE NEXT GENERATION OF MEN.

WORRY IS ANTI-PRAYER.

JESUS NEVER OFFERED US A COMFORTABLE LIFE. THERE WILL BE CHALLENGE AND PAIN.

YOUR PROBLEMS ARE NOT OTHER PEOPLE. TROUBLE IS ALWAYS CENTERED IN THE SPIRIT REALM FIRST AND FOREMOST.

MEN MUST CONTINUALLY “GOSPEL” THEMSELVES ACCORDING TO EPHESIANS 6.

THERE ARE NO CHUBBY BREASTPLATES IN THE ARMOR OF GOD. THE ARMOR MAKES US FIT AND ENCOURAGES US TO STAND IN THAT FITNESS.

THE ARMOR SHOULD MAKE US FILL THE WORLD AROUND US WITH PEACE.

THE ARMOR OF GOD IS MOST EFFECTIVE WHEN LINKED WITH A BAND OF BROTHERS.

PRAY THE WORD NOT JUST THE NEED.

Our men had a great day of fellowship together. I was greatly blessed by all the relationship building I saw going on.

In our final sessions I got a few more thoughts to think about.

STRONG MEN ARE SABBATH MEN. ADAM RESTED FOR WORK NOT FROM IT. REST IS FOUND IN JESUS NOT IN “REST”.

GOD LONGS FOR US TO BE IN RHYTHM NOT NECESSARILY IN BALANCE.

GOD HAS CALLED US TO PERSEVERE.

GOD HAS CALLED US TO HUMILITY AND SUBMISSION

GOD HAS CALLED US TO SERVE.

It was a great day of worship, spiritual reminders and challenges, fun, and fellowship.

THANK YOU ANDY AND STEPHEN!

SPROUTS

February 29, 2024February 29, 2024 / joseph elon lillie / 2 Comments

Well my indoor garden has sprouted. My friend Jody says I have planted too early. It may be so, but that is the glory of experimentation. We shall see what the future holds for my garden… and other things. I am finding a weird sort of peace in the face of all the current uncertainties. I possess a kind of contentment in the midst of uncertain circumstances that is based in eternal certainties.

I don’t know if my garden will grow to fruit.

I don’t know how long my mother’s failing health will hold.

I don’t know how long the church’s current favor in the community will last.

Pastor Amanda volunteering at the CAC Bowling Alley

I don’t know about my future prosperity. my regions future prosperity. The country’s future prosperity. The world’s future prosperity.

I don’t know a lot of things…..But there are things I am certain of.

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who^[a] have been called according to his purpose. ROMANS 8:28

I CAN BE… confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus. PHIL. 1:6

The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness. Instead he is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance. But the day of the Lord will come like a thief. The heavens will disappear with a roar; the elements will be destroyed by fire, and the earth and everything done in it will be laid bare.^[a]11Since everything will be destroyed in this way, what kind of people ought you to be? You ought to live holy and godly lives ¹²as you look forward to the day of God and speed its coming.^[b] That day will bring about the destruction of the heavens by fire, and the elements will melt in the heat. ¹³But in keeping with his promise we are looking forward to a new heaven and a new earth, where righteousness dwells. 2 PETER 3:9-13

So I can see the forest. It’s the trees I am struggling to see.

DO YOU SEE THE FOREST OR THE TREES?

Tired…. but Still Cute

January 19, 2024January 20, 2024 / joseph elon lillie / Leave a comment

My Grandson’s newest game. I call it “Toddler Trainwreck”

It is 11:52 P.M. I was asleep. I had given up on the day and this post among other things. I was tired, so I retired to my recliner (the place I am currently spending most nights to watch over Mom). I was actually sleeping pretty good and then I heard mom trying to rise to get to the bathroom.

I am glad she did. I am glad she needed the help to the bathroom. It gave me the push I needed to finish the day. So I plugged in the Mom’s medical pad and logged in her final meds for the day which I had neglected to do at supper time, and now I am finishing up this blog. I feel accomplished…and cute… just like my grandson playing his new game of “toddler train wreck”.

I am playing train wreck with the end of the day. Does it qualify if this blog about yesterday is actually posted at 12:01 A.M. today? I think it should.

2024 Day 18…TIME MOVING FASTER

January 18, 2024January 18, 2024 / joseph elon lillie / Leave a comment

I feel like I am moving in slow motion while the world is speeding up around me.

I can’t believe it has been six days since I have taken a moment to breathe and write here on “Notes…”.

It’s not that I haven’t written anything. I am doing daily VLOGS and daily written devotionals during the 21 days of fasting and prayer. Our congregational word for the year is “PREPARE”

God is sharing with me during this season, that I will be leading the church through a time of preparation and carrying out the fruit of that preparation. I feel like we are at the beginning of a great race. I also sense it may not be a very long race once it begins, but it is going to consume every bit of energy and resource we are preparing.

One thing I am learning is that oof I am going to prepare I need to do a little everyday without missing a day. Consistency is going to be a very important part of my days ahead.

WHAT ARE THE IMPORTANT CHARACTERISTICS OF YOUR YEAR AHEAD?

DAY 1 2024

January 1, 2024January 1, 2024 / joseph elon lillie / 2 Comments

Happy New Year!

2023 is history. Here is my favorite picture from the last year.

This is a picture of night time at The Vicarage during a full moon. I was pleasantly surprised by the filter edits I was able to impose on the original.

I am setting my sights on 2024 now. I am praying close into what God will give me for the year ahead. I already know my word for the year…”PREPARE”. I am asking now what I should use for filters on the raw material God gives me so that I might be prepared for God’s best outcome.

I know I am going to be working on my weight, strength and flexibility.

I know I am going to be working on my administrative capabilities.

I know I am going to be working on my writing again.

I know I am going to be preparing for some big changes at The Vicarage which will affect me spiritually, emotionally, and practically.

I know there are opportunities and challenges in my pastoral work that I need to get a better understanding of.

I know there are coming changes in The United States and the Earth which I need to understand better.

I know God is about to move in our church in some new, exciting and challenging ways.

I know God is about to move in our region in some new, exciting and challenging ways.

Lord Prepare me! Lord prepare us!

Photo by Andrea Piacquadio on Pexels.com

WHAT DO YOU THINK THE NEXT YEAR WILL BRING?

Memories Of Christmas 2023

December 26, 2023December 26, 2023 / joseph elon lillie / Leave a comment

Christmas 2023 created so many wonderful memories for me. It was a season of old traditions and new experiences blended together. We started the Christmas celebration with Christmas Eve service and communion followed by a quiet family dinner. We had shrimp with cocktail sauce and roast beef pinwheels, Eggnog and Christmas cookies, and chips with salsa and cream cheese dip as usual. But this year we added lumpia to the mix.

It was Sevy and Kristine’s first American Christmas so we blended American tradition with Philippine tradition.

Christmas Day we started the day with stuffed French toast and bacon.

For lunch I made lasagna, cole slaw and buttermilk biscuits. Kristine made more lumpia….soo good!

maja blanca….soooo good!

and lechon….sooooooooooo good!

The day was ordered around keeping Sevy on track with the Christmas plans. We knew it was time to move onto the next tradition when Sevy started climbing the walls.

Opening presents with four generations was one of yesterday’s great blessings. It is not every family that has the privilege to have four generations living under one roof.

The Christmas season has come and gone and now we are rushing headlong into the New Year. My word for 2024 is “Prepare”. I believe next year will be a year of great upheaval and change. Holding on to our hope, peace, joy and love is going to need that preparation.

A DAY GIVEN TO DEATH

December 20, 2023 / joseph elon lillie / Leave a comment

I am in the midst of a day of death. I awoke this morning and headed to church early to set up tables in our fellowship hall for a funeral reception we are having this evening. After finishing up at church I was just sitting down to put the finishing touches on my funeral sermon when I got a call from another parishioner. His wife had just passed into glory.

I experienced several moments of feeling overwhelmed. Then the still small voice of God spoke into my heart.

DEATH IS NOT THE END. IT IS A BEGINNING.

I knew this as truth. I just needed the reminder in the moment of stress. I am thankful for a God who is able to speak to me when I need speaking to.

Bolstered by the knowledge of new beginnings I went to the family, prayed with them, hugged them and did the work for which God has appointed me. Now as I sit awaiting tonight’s funeral that knowledge still holds me and will hold me through. Such knowledge can hold us all through as we face life’s greatest challenges. There is a God who loves us. He is passionate about mankind. He brings help wherever He is invited, wherever He is welcomed. In the presence of God even death becomes a doorway through which we can walk into greater blessing.

WHERE IN YOUR LIFE DO YOU NEED TO WELCOME GOD AT THIS MOMENT?

THE SMALLEST ACT IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION

December 16, 2023 / joseph elon lillie / Leave a comment

NO ACT OF KINDNESS, NO MATTER HOW SMALL, IS EVER WASTED- AESOP

Today was leadership training day at Cornerstone.

One of my core values as a pastor is continual learning for our leadership. So once a month we set aside a Saturday for training. Today was a review of some of the training lessons from the past, specifically Atomic Habits. Atomic habits are small changes that reap great change.

This quote reminds me of the atomic habits. It’s not always the grand gestures that change the world. Sometimes its just a cup of cold water offered at the right time. I am trying to practice little kindnesses in my life now. I am trying to be more kind (with varying degrees of success depending on the day, but I am trying). I am also working on my mindfulness in life’s activities. When I show up I am trying to be present…really present.

WHAT ARE SOME LITTLE KINDNESSES THAT HAVE MADE A DIFFERENCE IN YOUR LIFE?

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